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January Journal

by Aaron Strumpel

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1.
First love, first fruits, first days, first you I am for you, I am for you When you take all, take all of me I am made new I am made more like you I'd never dreamed it'd be so good
2.
I'll seek you first // When morning's new I'll find you first // I'll look to you Your Kingdom come // It's all brand new Your will be done // On earth anew Hallowed by your name in all the earth You fill my plate // With daily bread Your gifts are great // I am well-fed Forgive me // As I forgive Deliver me // I'm desperate Hallowed by your name in all the earth All power // All glory // Are yours // Forever
3.
Peace I sing to you Peace I bring to you Peace I plant deep in your dirt Woah Love I sing to you Love I bring to you Love I plant deep in your dirt Woah Hope I sing to you Hope I bring to you Hope I plant deep in your dirt Woah Joy I sing to you Joy I bring to you Joy I plant deep in your dirt
4.
I // Will // Love // You Like // You // Love me What else would I do Who else would I love Where else would put My heart I // Will // Live // Well Like // You // Made me to do What else would I do Spend my time in vain Why would I live Outside of you I // Will // Find // You Like // You // Found // Me What else would I do Leave my love behind How else could I live Without you
5.
I look around // And I'm overwhelmed By the sense that I'm not alone I open my ears // I think I hear Your still small voice Oh it's been years // Since I last looked up Since I wondered at all Oh where've you've been // I can't recall Your ways, your song You are the one // From my dreams Long ago // You are the one When I was young // Before I was told You shouldn't count the stars You shouldn't search the clouds Your heart's better off dead And don't laugh so loud
6.
Dry lands you lead me there Dry lands you meet me there Dry lands you feed me there But I hope to not stay But I hope that one day You'll take me home to stay Home to stay Take me home to stay Home to stay
7.
At the dawn of the day I want to say I'll start with hope I'll start with faith I'll start with you In the midst of the day I want to say I'll chase down peace I'll chase down joy I'll chase down you At the end of the day I want to say I have loved you well I have loved you true I still love you In the deep of the night, no place for fear In silence of dark, no room for ghosts In the depths of sleep In the realm of dreams You're with me
8.
Oh the pressure of this pressing in If I could choke it out I would kill my sin I can't believe I've come here again I've sang that your grace is more than enough I've shouted your name till my voice turned gruff I've lost some fights on days when singing wasn't enough I must admit that life is not a package to be wrapped and bowed up I must admit that lines are not so clean to me the more I walk them Oh the kids that are bound and held and pinned Yeah the slavery that we can't begin To scream enough about, to fight, to win Would be enough to make me quit Would darken my heart, would end my wit I could see myself just giving up I must admit that life is not a package to be wrapped and bowed up I must admit that lines are not so clean to me the more I walk them That I am not so strong I can't stand tall when I stand on my own That days are lost but God will never stop He moves when I can not
9.
I rest in you, you see me through These nights so long I dream of you I dream of you, I dream of you
10.
My God I turn on a dime I'm scared every time I turn on a dime My God I am shifting like sand I can't even stand Shifting like sand Take my life I am done with it I will spend my days with you Take my all I am over me I will take my time with you My God I'm a wreck without you here I am given to fear I'm a wreck without you here My God I'm a real piece of work There is no comfort I'm a real piece of work Poor in spirit, wet with tears Meek in stature, merciful in mind Pure in heart, full of peace Persecuted, ah its you I need My God my rest is in You You've made all things new My rest is in You My God you're love rushes in You cover my sin You're love rushes in
11.
Pushing farther into the abyss I am finally getting used to this It's been years of lovers years of failures years all alone Pushing farther I am ready for this I-I-I-I am finally with you You-ooh-ooh-ooh are mine it's true I-I-I-I will only love you You-ooh-ooh-ooh have carried me through Jesus, you're the one who saves Now that I know You, I don't fear the grave Jesus, the one who came Now that I know You, I'm not the same I-I-I-I am finally with you You-ooh-ooh-ooh are mine it's true I-I-I-I will only love you You-ooh-ooh-ooh have carried me through Pushing deeper into the great unknown I am finally excited for this It's been years in coming years of waiting years of listening Pushing deeper I am ready for this Wide-eyed wonder//Words like thunder You shake my world//Over and under Deep blue skies//Bright blue moons You make see more//Oh I see you
12.
1.12.12 Time 00:44
blackened coals crunch underfoot the debris of life turned to soot there is no return no turning back time has turned her corner she will not keep track of the seas of raindrops she slowly weeps of mountains of sandstone she will not keep she lives in one direction and will not stop she gives what is necessary until she does not
13.
Earth and rock fell down when I called to you I can't be left here I won't be alone Like this My life I am beside myself Sun and moon stood still when you came for me I am the last one who thought it'd be Ship and sea were tossed round when you raised your voice I was the first one to hear things changing
14.
Bells like hammers fall on deaf ears There's a sense that the world's gonna end Hell like ice cycles coming fast like tricycles Winds of doctrine like sin Clear as mud you are, thinking 'bout blood you are Thirsty like never before Dear as family trees broken down at the knees There's a problem with half of your heart What's wrong with your head when you count 'em dead The ones you've never decided to hear What's wrong with your heart when you can't even start To see your thoughts are formed by your fear Hard as wood your head rings with blood racing To the ends of your thought Soft as lead it runs, down and into bed With the devil, oh son you've been bought What's wrong with your head when you count 'em dead The ones you've never decided to hear What's wrong with your heart when you can't even start To see your thoughts are formed by your fear Did ya have to yell so loud, did you have to laugh so long Did it make you feel better, did it make you feel strong Did ya have to throw 'em out, oh the dear little ones Did ya have to push 'em way, oh our daughters and our sons Oh step back you're on a ledge too high With a gavel in your hand and a sickle and a scythe You've taken too much and you'll take much more You're gonna fall and burn, you gotta stop keeping score
15.
I thank God for you For the faith and love that live in you For the hope that's sprung within you For His word that feeds and nourishes For the fruit that grows and flourishes For His grace poured out His encouragement
16.
1.16.12 Leap 03:18
I am yours as far as I know I wish I could know farther than I do You are mine as far as you say I wish I could hear your voice today It's no leap of faith during times when I'm close There's no problem with my heart no problem when I know So build me up in you and teach me your voice Raise me up in you God, you're my first choice
17.
1.17.12 Fool 03:41
You can't force your way to the top With your loud loud voice You can't build your kingdom to the sky Like this city is your toy You can't plant your trees with beans So magic they don't need At least century or two To grow shade underneath You must//Love Her//Like He loves His Bride//True Love She won't//Be fooled You can't force your way with her With your strong strong arm You won't build a bridge to her Without doing her harm You can't call her into the streets Till you know who she is She won't open herself to you When you act like this You must//Love Her//Like He loves His Bride//True Love She won't//Be fooled So don't//Be a fool Tho you say//It's for Him You're a fool//For your pride It will not serve//You here
18.
Under the gun I am not one To sweat a thing out To sit a thing out I'm gonna make a move I'm gonna make some noise I'm not afraid to fight I'm not afraid to bite I will get closer to you Under the sun It rains and it pours On the ones who have much On the ones who are poor It's a pity for the fools Who are stuck in the mud It's a shame on the souls Too afraid to run True love, true love I don't guess True love, true love What a mess True love, true love Yeah it's the best True love, true love True love, true love
19.
Giant steps//Ones so steep Giant nights//Ones so deep I'll break your heart my love I'll leave you 'lone again I'll kiss your face my love Betray and turn you in Say goodbye//Youth grows old Just like time//Fast it goes Me oh my don't let it pass you by Me oh my your hope it flies Me oh my you mustn't cry Me oh my you mustn't cry
20.
Oh I am poured out all over the room I am crushed now and given to you I have let go of all that I hold I have more now than I ever had So sweetly I am laid down low An offering I will become I've brought you things you don't require And now I see I'm your desire I am yours now I am yours And I am all you want You are mine now You are mine And you are all I want
21.
Don't keep it to yourself The things that you say in the dark Don't shut it up tight The secrets you don't wanna let out You//can't//fool//me You//can't//hide//from me Don't run away right now Hide from the one that you love Don't sneak away so quiet Please say the word, you'll be heard Don't say a word//your heart will beat on And I will reach out//I miss you son So come back right now//I'll throw you my robe You're the one that I miss//You're the one that I know
22.
Oh good night sweet child Won't you rest so deep In His arms you are safe You are sound Oh good night lil' child' Won't you dream so sweet By His word you are rich You are crowned Like the stars fill the sky And the water fills the sea So his love covers you, covers me
23.
Five loaves, two fish Make it count, make it last
24.
I don't know anymore what to do Could you help me please Oh God, I am lost Oh God, I am lost I don't know cause I can't see it all The world's a complicated place Oh God, I am small Oh God, I am small I don't know how far I can run It's been a long run so far Oh God, I am tired Oh God, I am tired
25.
All night I flood my bed with tears I am worn right thru from groaning I sleep-half-sleep it's all I can do to keep, My eyes and thoughts from turning under All night I flood my bed with tears Away from me my enemies Get away from me my enemies The Lord has heard and his mercy will overturn The plans that have formed against me Get away from me my enemies
26.
You've filled my days with blessings You've placed a crown of gold on me You've kept me in your presence You've given all I need
27.
Statues of stone, stand tall alone They crumble down, no song no groan Gold bullion high, for all who will look You'll stumble down, your eyes are hooked Don't chase the ways of man or the needs of flesh Don't run for shiny soul-less stones you'll get a mess You'll die the same without a friend you'll be alone You can take with you what you hold dear if it'll pass through Death's dark door Big houses dark, no light within They'll burn down too, like thatch roofs caved in Chariot cars, made from men's blood They'll succumb too, to moth and to rust So let go right now, no one can hold A chest so full of pride, a chest so full of gold So let go right now, I'll show you how There's better things to hold, there's better things than gold
28.
She's like the sunlight this girl that comes to kiss me in the morning The fragrance of grace the timbre of gold her hair falls down She reminds me of home I'm drawn to her in every way
29.
Oh God you are my God and I am yours forever There's no other way I can be So it's done then, and you are mine, and I am yours now and forever I will walk this out with you my God Sanctify me Lord // Give me holiness Spare me ritual Sanctify me Lord // Give me purity Spare me religion You are real God, You are real, no denying that you are here There's no other way, as I can see it So I'll search You, oh I'll search, and see your hands in everything In my mind, in my heart, you are stirring And I will walk so close to you Your life and light will pierce me through I'll see this long and hard thing through Clean cut, clean wound, my heart's in two I'm circumcised in Christ my love You've stripped off all my dirt and rough You've called my name from clouds above Baptized in You I'm bathed in love
30.
I won't fear the night's dark terror Nor pestilent black error The hole in my heart won't bleed me out tonight I won't dwell on the day's sharp arrows There is hope tho the way is narrow The whole of my heart will beat for you tonight I'll search my heart // In this deep dark That falls round me // In dread I'll know the warmth // Of your glorious face I'll look to you // My God I will lie down in peace My mind and soul at ease The hole in my heart will fill tonight I will sing through my dreams Sweet melodies they will be The whole of my heart will sing to you tonight When I wake to your sun Frights of night will be undone The hole in my heart will be healed up When I sing your song so bright I will feel your power and might The whole of my heart will burst forth in song
31.
Blessed is the restlessness that leads us to Your Face Blessed is the urgency the finds us in Your grace You long for us as we long for you We're complete in you, Eternal God You long for us as we long for you We are found in you, Beloved One

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I wrote a song a day for a month, to see what would be unearthed, but also to challenge myself creatively...what would it take to get into writing head-space on a daily basis? To approach the Spirit who gives voice and melody in all things every day for sustenance and partnership?

Some of these songs were done within twenty minutes, some took a couple of hours. Some I would put on any record, produced out with thick instrumentation, some I would throw into a folder never to be seen till I’m an old man, bored and needing to remember. But here they all are for you...

*This package includes a lovely digital booklet with lyrics, notes on songs, photographs, compiled and designed by Aaron.

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released September 21, 2012

Recorded and Engineered over the course of three mornings by Aaron Strumpel at Shovel Studios
(www.shovelstudios.com)

Mixed and Mastered by David Wilton at St. Ida's Recording Studio in Lafayette, CO (www.saintidas.com)

Artwork by Aaron Strumpel

Bird Iconography by David Salinas (enthos.net)

All songs written by Aaron Strumpel with the exceptions of two co-write revisions, “Turn On A Dime” and “Poured Out” by Aaron Strumpel, Jason Roberson, and Luke Humbrecht

©2012 Thirsty Dirt Records

www.aaronstrumpel.com

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Aaron Strumpel Boulder, Colorado

Aaron Strumpel is a songwriter based in Boulder, CO.  A collaborator with Enter the Worship Circle, an avante-garde worshipper with his Elephants, Birds, and Vespers, he has been featured in Christianity Today, Relevant Magazine, and Paste Magazine.

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